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tired Do you think it's odd for a female to wear glasses her whole life instead of contacts? It seems so very few people these days go the glasses route. I was told by my optometrist today that he thinks I will never ever tolerate contacts and must accept that. After all the trauma to my eyes over the years they are severely out of shape and both my eyes are now -11.00 or worse. I have astigmatism on top of that and light sensitivity. He thinks it'd probably be impossible to find a pair that worked for me. I was very very disappointed at this. I am so terrified that my eyesight will keep getting worse until it stabilizes in my mid to late twenties. But then I will spend the rest of my life straining my eyes to see almost everything because even with glasses I don't see 20/20. So frustrating. I still haven't decided if I am going to accept that I will never get to wear contacts.
Apparently there is a surgery I had never heard about, but it's very very expensive. They surgically open up your eyes and insert permanent lenses. I would see perfect after this, but my god, is that a terrifying surgery or what?
Why do I always doubt myself? I must have better and stronger convictions. I must trust that I know best on some things. No, this has nothing to do with my eyesight, just a random thought.
I am so very tired. I am going to try to be productive throughout the rest of today after I get up, and then I'm off to Kamloops for the weekend!
What a lameass entry.
September 23 2005, 16:48:46 UTC 6 years ago
Eye surgery is scary and that's all I have to say about that.
And, I think you stick by your convictions very well and it's admirable. I don't know which ones you are talking about at this point but everyone has self doubt sometimes. EVEN JEEBUS! Heh heh.
ANYWAY... I respect you and I think you are awesome and have great ideas even though I don't always agree and I think you'll always be able to decide what is right and stick to it in the long run. So, remember even if you don't always believe in yourself other people do.
Gah, I feel cheezy. HAVE FUN IN KAMLOOOOOOOOPS.
September 24 2005, 03:23:41 UTC 6 years ago
And wow...well, thank you for everything else you had to say, too! That is so humbling to me, and I mean that. I really really appreciate it. I know in the end I have to pick my own self up in order to get through things in life, but it certainly helps when I get support to, and it means a lot coming from you.
Kamlooooooooooops, here I come! We're passing by mountains with great names like Mount FORMIDABLE and Mount TERROR so hopefully the trip is a safe one.